Who has saved you?

On my drive into work today I started thinking about how much different things would be without some of the people I have in my life today. There are people and groups of people in my life that totally made me who I am today, for the good and the bad. The bad things that have happened in my life brought out the good people.. Amazing people. People who have saved me.

There was a time I didn’t see a future for myself. I won’t get into the downer details but the first 1.5 years of college really sucked. I still don’t like to talk about it. However, coming home from college and getting treatment was step one to where I am today and I have my parents to thank for that. They pushed me to get out of the situation I was in, get help, and get back into college locally. I graduated 3 years later (2016) and attributed that success yes, to myself and my hard work, but also to my parents, sister, and boyfriend’s (at the time) support. There had been a time when I didn’t think I would see myself graduate let alone graduate, have an apartment, a loving and caring boyfriend, and crazy dogs at the time. It made me realize how far I had come.

My boyfriend at the time, who is now my husband helped pull me out of a deep hole of depression. He helped me transform from a doormat to a strong minded independent woman (THAT’S ALLOWED PEOPLE!). I am the woman I am today because of his support and unwavering love. I know, mushy, but its true. He’s my best friend and lets me have my moments of anger and sadness but also pulls me up out of it and has been there for the happiest moments of my life (graduating college, our wedding, the birth of our child, etc.).

Then there is our daughter. She was put on this Earth for a reason. She was born about a month before COVID-19 was declared a pandemic. about 2 months before the passing of my mother-in-law. She is our honeymoon baby. She was conceived the month my husband and I got married after an 11 month engagement. We thought it would take a while to get pregnant as I’ve struggled with endometriosis since the 11th grade (my first surgery for it). I was told if when we start trying and it’s been 6 months and no baby, to go back in to my OB to come up with a plan. We got pregnant on our FIRST TRY! I have no doubt that Our girl was brought to us to help us through these challenging times. She saved my husband and I. Just like my parents and my husband saved me personally, Bean (her nickname) saved US. Through the loneliness of the pandemic, we had our girl. If is frightening having a newborn during a pandemic let me tell you. Every sneeze, every fever from teething, every weird looking poop your fear the worst. But she has also brought us joy I never knew was possible. She looks you in the eyes and smiles and you just forget all of the fear. Then when my husband’s mom passed in his family home unexpectedly, she was the light that got us through, and continues to get us through. There are new hurdles in our lives and no doubt things are about to get even harder, but I am at ease when I hold her. Those moments when i’m nursing my girl and she holds my finger with her little hands or I see her playing with her daddy, I know that she was put on this earth just in time to save us.

Who has saved you in your life? Who has helped you become the person you are today. Don’t forget your worth either. People are placed into our lives to hopefully make us better people but YOU also put in the work to get where you are today and you ARE the decisions you have made. Be proud of yourself for every step in the right direction, no matter how small. Surround yourself with people who lift you up and help you achieve your wildest dreams.

xo Milk Boss